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Friday, August 25th, 2006
3:15 pm	huh so, whats been going on? i don't know. not a hell of alot. everything at home is good. getting on really well with jennie. playing pool, drinking less. got a video card, oh and my id arrived!!! not that i've really used it, i still don't go anywhere. could go to moist tonight but i think i'll stay at home and watch the young ones. and i finally have my room to myself!! super fantastic. sam has a place in newtown, just down the road and anthea has moved back to the gong. and left half her shit at my place, which she's not getting back. haha yay for new white high tops!! thats all (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, July 21st, 2006
1:32 pm	i don't like loud noise. unless im making it. somtimes its fun to scream as loudly as possible. unfortunitly people think you're crazy as a result. more crazy. you know what? fuck it. i'm about to get my hair cut. rules: don't touch the mullet. i will not be impressed if i pay $70 and end up with a typical boring spikey dikey hair cut. but i'm not likely to say anything. i hate new hairdressers. especially in fancy places. i'm not confident enough to say oh dear god no, what are you doing? i said one inch not four. then i'm going out tonight. have been invited to party type thing at 77. havn't been there for ages so should be fun... and kate will be there... and i don't need id to get in more on the id files... i have tracked my passport from the imperial to the redfern police station... back to fucking nz. and god only knows how i'm going to get it back. need id to prove im me. haha round and round in circles i go. anyway snipity snip... (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, July 16th, 2006
11:07 pm	unhappy quickly now anna. i just ventured out to buy dinner. stopped to check email. am enjoying a night alone. first time in a while. think i may be in the middle of some sort of breakdown. i can't handle anything right now and everything and everyone is making me angry. more angry then usual. i dont want to be a constantly angry person. but i just don't know what to do to make me happy right now. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, July 4th, 2006
4:29 pm	what do you mean? hey kids. hey anna whats up well hot damn, glad you asked. mmm, actually not a hell of a lot. i like lists. quit my job at circle 8. walked out in the middle of a shift. felt gooooood. managing old fish cafe. start at 5.30 every morning. anthea lives with me. sami almost lives with me. edit left a week ago. so did undys. but he's coming back. haven't seen denis in ages. gonna try saving money. gonna drink less. already do actually. fantastic to talk to mark the other day. i cleaned the kitchen today. going to shauns for dinner tonight. bess you nead to sent me pics coz i couldn't find any of you. didn't help that the pics are thumb nails and i don't know what colour you were wearing. to the prom. mmmm, prom. anyway. thats all. so how are you? (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 18th, 2006
10:19 pm	oh. yes well. i fell asleep at work thismorning. i was meant to open the cafe at 6.3o. i got there at 7 and i think i was still drunk. luckely it wasn't busy till later. dave let me sleep for an hour. and now 16 hours later, i have finished work. oh oh i got my lip pierced. it is so cool. in the middle of my bottem lip. its just a little stud at the moment but soon i will get it stretched and put a ring throuhg. hot. what else? edit leaves on sunday. i'm going to miss her so much. and sami has asked me to go to the airport to see her off. sad. i left newtown for the first time in a month last night. i went to a pub in surry hills for someones 21st birthday. nice bar tab. lots of free drinks. was the only gay in the village for a while then hooked up with some girl chris went to school with. but she lives in auckland. im going home now. i nead to sleep. oh ok. i've had anthea living with me. she is one fucked up puppy. i feel like her mother. she kept me awake by coughing constantly the other night. so i bought her cough sryup. then she disappeared for two days on a mental bender and i'm getting phone calls from her mate asking if im with her and where is she. so i get all worried, especially after what happened with steph lick it. and she shows up at my work thismorning looking like a smacky asking for my keys so she can crash. ah, the youth of today, god love em. glad i'm keeping you entertained haley. mwahh (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Saturday, June 10th, 2006
1:48 pm	weeeeeeeeeeeiiiiiiiiiiirrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrd hi frances. hope you're feeling better. i'm bored. just finished work. got the whole afternoon and evening off. i'm probably going to nap. the weather is shit. not even proper shit. just grey and drizzley. gross. i finally got to know my flatmates, well two of them. and they are nice. luke is sort of a geek, or a nerd. but in the best possible way. actually that is how sami describes me and edit. nerds. i'm not sure why. and jennie smokes alot of pot. i think i'm going to like her. and she's hot and has fierce pirate ship tattoos. mmm. i don't want to nap. the girls are working, the boys are too far away, the trashbags will still be asleep on rimas floor. it's too early to go to the pub, i will meet chris there later. and maybe anthea. sami and edit has changed their minds about her. sami recons we'd be cute together and should hook up. somehow i don't think so. great as a friend and drinking buddy but she's the same age as my little sister and thats weird. weeeeeiiiiirrrd. ok Current Mood: awake (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 6th, 2006
2:27 pm	so i tend to go through stages of writing in this all the time or hardly at all. at present it's hardly at all. it all depends on my proximity to free internet. right now im sitting in a convienience store. it's $2 every 15 minutes or somthing stupid like that. so whats happening in my life aye? not really much. working quite a bit. i just filled out my roster for fish caf and took it down to circle 8 and told them to fill in the blanks! so i'm going to be doing alot of shifts. thats good. so i have toned down some aspects of stuff. as haley put it 'hit the snooze button' on the other hand the bar staff at my local know my name. surely it's not just me? they're just doing their job well. haha, who am i trying to kid. i was there on 5 nights last week. i made it into the second round of the pool comp on tuesday. playing against people who enter pool compititions. and drunk and not caring. mmm, what else? sunday night had a few beers with jes and anthea. silly jes got drunk and actually kissed me. i am less than impressed. then anthea (16) told me not to fall for her again. thats sweet. i'm getting life advice from a 16 year old. so weird. oh saturday i nearly had a mental breakdown. nat called in pregnant to work so we did the whole morning one down. we got absolutly fisted. then i realise someone has stolen my cell phone from the shelf at work. so i decide to dring as much coffee as i possibly can in the last hour of my shift. bad idea, sundays coffee comedown was nasty. anyway, went to broadway, bought a new phone, got a number to call to put my old number onto it. got back to newtown, tryed the number... not open on weekends. i felt like hurting people, throwing things and screeming as loud as i could. it was either that or break down crying. so i went back to broadway to tell the fat fuck who sold it too me what a dickhead he was. the fucker wouldn't make eye contact with me. eventually got it sorted. went to the pub, one, two, three beers later feeling better. went on a bit of a pub crawl with margrat and at some point in the moring i took one of her friends home. naughty naughty but fuck it. it's not like i do it all the time. or actually ever since i've been in sydney anyway. so my ability to seperate emotion form sex is not compleatly dead. ok. this is costing a fortune. hi everyone (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Friday, May 26th, 2006
6:53 pm	oh dear. this last week has been very strange. good great things and tragic things. sara and wayne came for the weekend to visit me. was super to see them. they came to check up on me. im not sure what idea they had on leaving as when they saw me on sunday afternoon before going to the airport i was at the pub and had been since leaving them the previous night. that said, it's all simons fault. ahha no not really. simon and lucy have been here for the last week, left yesterday. i have been playing with them, living it up. and really they do know how to party. simon does things proper. so once again, sad to see them go. and once again i'll never see the friends of theirs i hang out with while they are here. alana, mira and jerome mostly. and somehow in this week of maddness i have aquired a second job. super. i'm going to try and do as many hours as possible and save some money. good luck anna. on a sad note, a girl i know died on saturday night. i didn't know her well but it's still very sad. she was only 20 and was left in her car and not found untill the morning. very upsetting. and a bit of a wake up call to tone things down abit. i'm going home now to read and watch tv. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, May 12th, 2006
2:12 pm	oh dear, must be quick. costs a lot to use the internet in newtown. so yeah. moved, all good. took ages and is soooo stressfull. but sorted. money is still an issue. have to pay two lots of rent at the moment. so no leftover money for anna to play with. or even live with. luckely i have friends at several of the cafes around here and get free food!! everything else is good. again being a trashbag with no mon ey. shit. gotta stop that. hanging out with shaun a bit. i like him. want to be friends with jes but who knows if that will happen. seeing sam and edit alot. i love them. vic and dearne have moved back to sydney. they like to judge. i know i've bben a trashbag recently but i dont nead them to look at me like i'm a compleate waster. fuckers. anyway. i'm off to rimas. kia kaha anna hahahah (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 26th, 2006
10:46 pm	typos i just noticed typos in my last two entries. haley, the one for you is missing a line ...and does some unspeakable things... anyway. when the highs are false and the lows are too often i eat apples in bed and think about where to go next i may, fingers crossed, have got myself sorted. i have a job!!! yay go me. it only took 3 weeks for me to get off my arse and do it. haah and i'm going to look at a flat in newtown on saturday. i've already done a little spying mission and seen the place. its a cute little terrace house, smack bang in the middle of newtown. close to work and busses and trains. could be very good. i wont get to go couch surfing but thats probably a good thing, i dont know how long my friends would like me if i did. having no money is weird. i just spent the last four days partying and crashing at other peoples houses. got home a few hours ago. i dont like being here. i dont like being alone. but its been good. with one little slip up. it was edit's 27th birthday yesterday. sammi and i organised a dinner party for her on monday night. i think we did extreamly well, getting 12 people at the same restaurant at the same time!! so that was a good evening, followed by a party in bondi for emilo, also fun. followed by a slightly drunken anna going to stonewall. thats where everything went slightly pear shaped. two steps forward one step back. or. how fast can i run backwards before i fall over. haha. too bad. fuck it. anyway. i've got to start packing. moving again. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Sunday, April 23rd, 2006
1:03 pm	for haley she sleeps with ghosts and drinks red wine and nobody knows and noone cares but when she closes her eyes she can smell crayons so yeah yeah. didn't get that job. have two more trials next week. one at a cafe in newtown on monday morning and another for a dirty local pub on oxford street. we shall see. mark my soul mate. mmm, maybe. he will always be my best friend i think. and jes now part of an elite group of people i care about. i dont know if it's elite. ok. (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 19th, 2006
3:21 pm	She would sit in the corner for hours. Reading, drawing, all the time chain smoking. The TV was always on. wether anyone was watching it or not. and the window was always closed because it was winter. and smoke filled the room. he played was on the old PC he'd pieced together from other old PC's. sometimes he wouldn't leave the house for days. she would microwave him food. she had a job for a while. a little bit of routine that gave her weird energy.one evening they found her on the fence flying a plastic bag on a string. there was no wind. the she didn't have a job so she went to bed. he would bring her food and vidoeos and drugs. sometimes they would talk and play polker. sometimes they would just lie there. she didn't know what was wrong or what was missing. so she stayed in bed. (Comment on this)
3:11 pm	mmm mmm ok haley, smartie pants. your half not quite right. i got week and went and saw her on wednesday. bad move anna, although fun. but no, no more. haven't seen her since. i'm tired of having my head fucked with. so yeah. sorry about your arse darling. i had a job trial today. it went really well. they havn't called me back yet. if they havn't called by 4 im calling them. im getting desparete. talked to sara and wayne last night. told them my woes. was weird, they were drunk. probably the first time sara and i have had a long easyish conversation since christmas. weeeird. and oh fun and joy. i have to go house hunting again AGAIN. fuck it. nicks moving in three weeks. so thats me on the street again. i might like you better if we slept together maybe thats never. never say never. the radio plays the same songs over and over and over. robbie fucking williams jesus je SUS. Current Mood: bored (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 12th, 2006
2:35 pm	so i actually got out of bed today at a reasonable time. a big accomplishment. and i went along to a job interview, not having a clue what the job was for. well well... turns out the palace hotel is reinstating their big gay drag blah blah weekends. 'brokeback fridays' i find out tomorrow. haha me working in a gay bar. probably mostly boys and drag shows all night. so fun fun, it's a start. and i just did a wander round potts point handing out cv's. only one possible. i should go and get the paper. but i'm at home now and it's fucking 30 degrees outside. and i should start painting undys birthday present. stuff to do. and the only time i'm ever motivated is in the middle of the night. last night i couldn't sleep so i got my art paraphnalia out and started drawing, then finger painting then cut and pasteing. the end result is slightly weird. haha and jes, yes well. at the pub on friday we had a little chat. lets just be friends sort of chat. i really wish she hadn't done this when i was drunk. not that i don't remember but i just wasn't fully capable of discussing this properly. and this chat mixed with alcohol and in light of other recent events got anna a bit upset. for someone that never crys i've been doing it a bit recently. that was the start of my weekend. which went mental crazy... suicide girls, not worth $50. especially when i lost a ticket. but rest of the night fantastic. mental at deck bar. finally met hot girl at pheniox. nearly fell asleap at arq. had big problems, gave jes my bag to look after on friday afternoon. realise i left my house keys in it. couldn't go home so paris took me to rima's where i slept untill 4 saturday afternoon. haha. hung out with her all saturday, ended up having drinks at the lewisham. work all day sunday then back out with denis kelly and sean. no sleep, all day monday at emilos then to work and it all finally ends when i fall into bed at 1am. see. i cant' stop, why cant i stop. i have no money. after next week i have no job. i miss jes. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 11th, 2006
5:36 pm	no love no comunication. no motivation. why cant i get up and do stuff. i just spent the last three days out. drinking dancing being oblivious. last night i wore kellys theigh high stilletos and a top that exposed my belly to arq. was very weird. i just don't know feel anxious retarded want to change must it hurts too much no love (Comment on this)
Wednesday, April 5th, 2006
12:47 pm	so i need a new job. morgans is over for me. it's really hard to type on coke. it will be easy to get a job. what do i want though? days? nights? who knows. lots of hours though. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 27th, 2006
1:54 pm	things still seem to be mad hectic. not seeing jes didn't work at all. it took her one day to break the rules. i think she likes me. haha. and yes i probably nead to slow down. but since i wrote in this last i've spent 2 nights in my own bed. i called my sisters yesterday. they are at mardi cup doing rowing stuff. i hope they go well. i was having a missing my family moment. sara never calls. actually never. last time i spoke to her was to ask advice about tax money stuff. i asked her to call me back about it. she didn't. i guess they're all really busy. but fuck that. i'm not going to be the one to call anymore. it feels like she doesn't care. what else is new? undys is at salisbury palace. i can't wait for him to get back. i want to hear how he discribes it. and he's bringing me a care package from markus!! oh happy days. off home now. nead to put on less hot clothes. (Comment on this)
Monday, March 20th, 2006
1:40 am	so things and stuff. i gave jes the address of this a while ago. i wonder if she reads it. she says she doesn't. we arn't seeing each other anymore for a while. i'm sad. i'm not sure what to do with myself. but things happen and whatever. i've had another mad few days. i cant seem to stop. or even slow down. just keep on trucking. 6 chicken wings on the way home. friends with strangers. mesmerised by fire. going to work on no sleap. touching and thinking but not feeling. doing it again the next night. why am i such a sceptic. why can[t i believe. what do i believe in. why can't i cry. why dont i trust. i dont know the answer. a few years ago i cried to mark. i remember sitting on the couch in my panties and covering myself in cushions so he couldn[t see me. because for some reason that made it better. and i was sobbing. but i cant remember why. i hope he does. if its when i think it was then i cant remember much of about six months. i must remember to ask him why. (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Friday, March 17th, 2006
4:47 pm	hello hello journal. hello world. i have eaten so im happy. but if i dont leave newtown soon im going to be late for work. mmm bad and i just bought my tickets to suicide girls!! hahahahahahahahahahahahqahahhahazhahahahhahaha suck it everyone in newzealand. im going and its going to be fantastic. loads of hot naked chicks. happy good fun all the time (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 14th, 2006
4:46 pm	hey hey. i havn't been home since sunday afternoon!! oh dear here we go again. had a lovely picnic at the fish park with they boys and edit and sami on sunday night. then off to jess's again. i just dont know whats going on there. it's almost too much or not enough or both at the same time. and i just can't quite figure it in my head properly. i dont like feeling like this. over analyzing every god damn thing because she expects me to tell her everything i'm thinking and yet wont talk to me. she seemed anoyed on the phone last night because i wouldn't go to her house, but she knew i was at a dinner party that i'd invited her to. i dont' know why i bother inviting her anywhere to do anything. she just wont. and she wont tell me why and she'll reply in noices. frustrating. anyway rant over. dinner party at edit and sami's last night was lovely. just the girls. got to know lotus and jackie more and sami's cute friend caroline was there. sat outside for dinner then lay in the back garden having a few splifs and some amol. turned out to be absolutly hilarious. lotus and jackie left and the four of us rolled around the yard laughing at each other for ages. i know i've said this before but i love laughing at nothing. must go now. i'm wearing the same clothes as sunday. thats gross. (1 Comment |Comment on this)